the beanstalk blog

I’ve had people ask me if I have any regrets with IVF. Honestly, I only have one regret – and that’s not documenting the details. When you’re going through IVF it’s so incredibly all consuming. It takes over your life. It takes up an incredible amount of your time, and it also becomes something you think about constantly. When I was in the thick of it I remember thinking, “I will NEVER forget all of these details.”

Well, fast forward 4 years and 3 IVF procedures later (one on my own and two surrogacy journeys), and I can assure you: you WILL forget.

I remember how many day 5 embryos we had and how many were PGS normal. That’s it.

I don’t remember how many eggs were retrieved.

I don’t remember how many eggs were initially fertilized.

I don’t remember anything about the medications I took, what the doses were, and how long I took them.

When I was first going through IVF, I was ashamed. I felt like less of a woman. I thought I’d want to completely forget this time in my life…..ignore it like it never happened.

Now that I’m on the “other side” of infertility and our family is complete (after 7 years of pain and heartache), I can assure you it’s the opposite.

I find so much STRENGTH from the struggles and heartbreak we endured. I believe struggling with infertility, loss and IVF made me a stronger, more empathetic person. A better person.

And I wish I would have documented my journey with IVF.

I now wish I could look back at an IVF journal, to see the pictures, documentation and notes. To look back and be PROUD of what we went through to grow our family.

I especially wish I had an IVF journal for my kids. How amazing would it be to be able to show something like that to your child when they’re older? Where they can SEE how much they were loved and wanted before they were even born.

When I was going through IVF there were no IVF journals out there. I searched the internet and book stores, and couldn’t find anything geared towards IVF. So what did I do? I decided to take matters into my own hands and create a beautiful product for the millions of us embarking on IVF each year.

Enter the Beanstalk Binder!

The Beanstalk Binder is a prompted IVF journal/planner/organizer to help you document your IVF journey. You can document your pregnancy as well! It covers everything from clinic interviews, to retrieval day, to transfer day, to the two-week wait. And SO much more!

IVF can be overwhelming. But it doesn’t have to be, with the Beanstalk Binder. Stay organized all while documenting the details of your journey in a beautiful way. Start a family heirloom for your child to look back on one day……to see how hard you worked to bring them into this world. To show them how incredibly loved they were since they were a tiny day 5 embryo<3

My Biggest IVF Regret